First Crush Ever

We were both young when I first saw you.
Having a medical check-up at the same clinics.

I just glanced at him and smiled.
I was too shy to speak without any logical causes.

It turned up that he is my coursemate and yet my orientation group members.
On the first day of enrolment, he was the first guy known by members of the hall.
He is popular until now.

Honestly, he is my first crush ever.
No one could make my heart beating so hard to see him
Nobody could make me uncomfortable once I am away from him.
No one could make me so jealous when people get close to him

"When you are admiring someone, you have a crush on that person. 
But, it is more than four months, the person is your lover/sweetheart/soulmate."

During the orientation, first two week, I couldn't manage my mood properly.
In the evening, I tend to be moody.

To be honest, I wanted him to be my only soulmate not just a crush.
But as the time goes, I feel that I would not be with him forever.

[without#him#maybe]

It's a New Year

The number '3' in the calender changed to '4'.
It seemed nothing to me since I thought I didn't change at all.
My life kept going as usual without any new year resolutions.

I'm bad at setting a long-period goals.
So I let my life keep going on its path.
The path might be good or the other away around.
But I believe that I could react in a good manner.

I'm twenty one.
I don't see me as an adult yet.
But people expect me to be so.
It is most probably because I'm a happy-go-lucky person and yet chubby.
Such a big child.
What should I do?
How should I be?

[one#year#after]